Death?? (Day 15)

When life was like hell for the past yrs to a point of self killing and finally like a sun smilling at you or like your teachers praising for you, my life been much better. So good that it scares me to death. I'm afraid that someday without warning all this happiness that i'm feeling will take away again. You know when jail give a convicted fellow (who's gonna hang) his choice of food for his last meal, i don't know why but i feel the same. And i shouldn't be afraid to face death but i'm kinda little afraid of it. For real i don't want to die, not now. I just hope "The One" is not planning to take me in so soon. Taking care of myself. Day 15

Music is part of my life !! (Day 5)

Music !! Its always been part of my life. I tried to remember the first song i really like and could only remember one song, its "Jumma chumma de de" from a movie called "Hum" back in 1991. The funny part is i really don't speak hindi or know any word of it then, but that doesn't stop me from singing or humming that song everywhere. Well, i finally stop singing that song when i found out the meaning of that line "Jumma chumma de de" (Jumma kiss me) :D lets just say i got embarrassed. With music, all i did was listen. I didn't try to create it or try to learn how to play wit any musical instrument. I regret not learning to play any instrument but there's still a lifetime to learn, right? after 20yrs of listening to music i have been trying to give something back to music, i'm trying to write song lyrics so that someday who knows how to sing can send out the song to the world. My dad writes lyrics so that kinda influenced me to write and i know i can, maybe someday you'd be humming one of my songs. . . someday someday. Day 5.